NoFap Journey

180 Days Later: My NoFap Journey Transformed Me

My NoFap Journey

Let me tell you about a journey that changed my life. This is my story about how I went from a lonely, guilt-ridden porn addict to a confident, respected man in just 180 days. If you’re struggling with the same issues, maybe my story will inspire you to make a change, too.

Well, let’s begin formally. Have a good day. 

Here is my story, and if it resonates with you, great. If not, I hope you find your silver lining soon. 

So here we go. Like most teens, I started jacking off at the age of 15. I had a flip phone with barely any pixels on it (millennials, you know what I mean). 

At first, it was spontaneous, fun, and euphoric. Yet, despite it all, I was still able to have on/off relationships with girls and lost my virginity at 16. 

Now, looking back on it (I’m 29 now), things started turning worse after high school graduation. By that time, I had an iPhone and a PC, which opened up a whole can of worms when it came to PMO (porn, masturbation, orgasm). I was going absolutely ham every day, thinking that jacking off was “healthy” for me since every web search told me so! There was no mention of when was the “right time” to stop, to draw a line!

So, I continued with this trend until I was about 26. Between high school graduation and being 26, a lot of moments could have led to me having sex with women. Yet, for some reason (looking back now), I didn’t pick up on those cues at all.

However, my world turned upside down when, at 26, I finally got a woman I was attracted to in bed. But to my surprise, my thing didn’t work. She tried almost everything to make me hard, but it didn’t budge. At the end of it all, it ended up with me blaming her for the occurrence (a move of a serious disgrace, I know). That’s when I realized something was wrong, and I had to find a way to fix this.

Well, by then, NoFap, the Manosphere groups, and all the YouTube man coaches had become much more popular. I started reading about it all after my best man, who completely changed my life because of it (Tim, if you’re reading this, you’re the absolute GOAT in my life), recommended it. 

After continuously going through the content and reading more and more about porn addiction, I decided to stop jacking off and watching pornography. Now, it’s been almost a year since I completely abstained from any pornographic material. 

My journey has transpired (mind you, the journey is far from over and is now becoming a complete lifestyle).

Month 1 – The Beginning

The first few days were quite difficult since my brain wasn’t used to the break. After about a week of abstaining, I got a sudden rush of energy (due to my testosterone levels skyrocketing). 

I felt absolutely unstoppable. I knew that was just a small taste of what was to come if I actually pulled through and conquered this recovery journey. 

I read a BlockerX post that recommended that people start being physically active in this stage. 

So, with that in mind, I worked on setting up a pattern of healthy habit formation. I got into the gym, signed up for Muay Thai, and started kickboxing—anything to get moving.

Month 2-3 – The Flatline

This is when things got really interesting. My brain started shutting down to go through the repair process. During this phase, I tried to convince myself that I needed to watch a couple of scenes or just a few pictures to make sure I wasn’t going insane. 

But thank god I didn’t fall into this trap. It was a mental war with myself.

During the flatline phase, I cared about nothing—people, goals, motives, nothing mattered. I had no strength to do anything. This was the most difficult time frame for me to get through. The mental battles, cloudiness, and some psychotic events were unlike anything I’d ever experienced before. 

I relapsed twice during the process, but before every relapse, the time frame between them kept increasing.

Month 3-6 – Seeing the Light

This is when I started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel (pun intended!), but the journey was far from over. I started recognizing my worth. I began valuing my time more, standing up for myself, and getting rid of any toxicity around me.

If people bugged me with some wanted stuff, I told him (respectfully) to get away from me. People who called to waste time, I told them (respectfully) to get away as well. I started spending time only with people who had a direct connection to my well-being. Friends and people who motivated me, instilled good habits, and looked up to me for advice became my new circle.

Month 6+ – Transformation

This is where I am now. Let me describe how my life has completely changed from where I was. 

Just this morning, I was at the gym. The whole gym knows who I am, and not in a goofy way, but in a respectful way. People respect me and look up to me. I started becoming an exemplary figure in other people’s lives. Health, wealth, and relationships concepts took on a whole new meaning for me. I started actually behaving like an adult.

Before, during the PMO stages of life, there always seemed to be this “childish” aspect that lingered. But now, I’ve dropped the habit, and all the goofiness, irresponsible behaviors, and weak shit went away.

And as for female interactions in my life, well that has changed too. 

There’s a clear difference in how women treat you when you are your worst version versus when you attract them because of who you are becoming. 

When you stop artificially stimulating yourself, your body starts to mold and drive you to self-improvement naturally. You start getting in shape, studying, growing mentally, and associating with higher-value people.

And that my friend is really attractive. 

So, my dear readers, if you are stuck with addiction in life, take a determined step to break free. Just do this for yourself, for your mental, physical, emotional, and social growth. 

I was in your shoes, and I’m still in your shoes since this journey isn’t over yet.

So far, I can attest that the adult media industry is destroying us. If you don’t have the strength for this, it’s okay. Not everyone is made for this, and someone needs to be on the other side of the coin. The question is, will it be you?

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Lynda Mayer

Lynda Mayer, LPCC, an alumnus of the University of Minnesota with a master's degree in Clinical Psychology, is a seasoned licensed professional clinical counselor. With over a decade of experience in counseling, she specializes in adolescent mental health. Lynda actively shares her extensive knowledge and insights through writing, contributing significantly to the field of psychology and mental well-being. Her work not only demonstrates her expertise but also her commitment to improving adolescent mental health outcomes.