Why I’m Quitting Porn at 30: A Personal Journey to Growth

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As I sit here, staring at my screen, I can’t help but feel the weight of the decision I’ve made. It’s not an easy one. But it’s one that I know deep down is necessary for my growth and well-being.  

You see, I’ve just turned 30, and with the beginning of this new phase in my life, I feel a newfound sense of clarity and determination. In fact, as I blew out the candles, I made a firm decision. I decided to quit porn, once and for all. 

And this was really necessary because for as long as I can remember, porn has been a part of my life. In fact, I’ve been watching porn since I was 15 years old. It started innocently enough, just a curious teenager exploring the world of the internet. But as the years passed, it became an addictive habit.  

Before I knew it, I was watching porn 2-3 times a week, sometimes even more! 

But when I got married last year, I thought that things would change. I thought that having a partner by my side would somehow make the temptation disappear. After all, I had a loving wife now, a real-life partner to share my life with. 

Well, it turned out nothing like I thought. 

I was simply not able to give up. I continued watching porn, along with the added guilt of hiding from my partner.  

You see, I have a work-from-home setup while my wife goes out to work. Now, this only made it easier for me to see through my addiction. I found myself slipping back into old patterns, watching porn almost every day. And doing my best to hide it from my wife.  

It really felt shitty. Like I am cheating on her, hiding things.  

But no way I was willing to risk her finding out. I didn’t want her to feel bad or have any doubts. I mean, what if she starts questioning our equation or chemistry? What if she starts doubting herself? What if she’s not able to understand that this all has nothing to do with US, it’s just ME and my addictive habit I am unable to resist.  

Despite all these doubts in my mind, I continue with my porn habit.  

But then something changed. I turned 30 on May 3rd. It was when a friend jokingly congratulated me on turning an old man, saying goodbye to a reckless, fun decade, It hit me: I am really doing that? Turning into a responsible man who understands the consequences of this action & makes changes accordingly?  

Well, not really. And that hit me like a wake-up call. 

I realized that I didn’t want this porn addiction to be a part of my life with my wife. I didn’t want to carry this secret shame around anymore.  

So, on that day, I made a decision: I was starting NoFap for real, and this time, I was determined to stick with it. 

And thus, my journey to quit porn began. 

Now, I knew I couldn’t do it alone. So, I reached out to a friend who had struggled with porn addiction in the past. Of course, I was very doubtful about making this move. I was feeling quite ashamed. But then I thought maybe having someone to talk to who understood could be a real help.  

And trust me, his support has been invaluable. He reminded me that freedom isn’t something that I have to wait for; it is not something I will achieve after 6 months or so—it’s something that I can choose right now, in this moment. Every day that I resist the urge to indulge is a victory in itself, a step closer to the life that I want to live. 

And man, how these words hit me! They really resonated with me.  

They reminded me that every day is a new opportunity to choose freedom over addiction.  

And let me tell you, there have been some tough days. Like when I’m home alone, and the temptation to watch porn feels overwhelming. But then I think about how I would feel afterwards, how I would have to carry that guilt and shame with me. I question myself do I really want to do this to my relationship?  

And suddenly, saying no doesn’t seem so hard anymore. 

However, as I continue on this journey, I also know that it’s not going to be easy. There will be moments of weakness and strength. But I’m committed to seeing it through. Because for me, quitting porn isn’t just about breaking a habit. It’s about reclaiming my life, building a stronger ME, and a healthier relationship with my wife. 

As for now, I take it one day at a time. And I couldn’t be more excited about the possibilities that lie ahead. I’ll be sure to come back and share my experiences along the way, so stay tuned. 

Until next time 

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Lynda Mayer

Lynda Mayer, LPCC, an alumnus of the University of Minnesota with a master's degree in Clinical Psychology, is a seasoned licensed professional clinical counselor. With over a decade of experience in counseling, she specializes in adolescent mental health. Lynda actively shares her extensive knowledge and insights through writing, contributing significantly to the field of psychology and mental well-being. Her work not only demonstrates her expertise but also her commitment to improving adolescent mental health outcomes.

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